Torn, Lost & Suffering,...

Sometimes it's funny how life is set out for you,...
I've had 3 girls who sacrificed for me but yet i was too blind and arrogant to take notice,...
The day they left,...
I didn't really feel I've lost anything,...
But instead I just find it as a part of the journey in life that that's the end of the journey we took together,...
Till the recent event made me realized how they felt,...
How much they're sacrificed to love me and care for me when I didn't take notice,...
Is this part of retribution or karma,...
Althought at times I can lie to myself and the others but the fact remain,...
I'm still bluffing myself,...
I can't seem to stop,...
I'm a happy shell and below the shell it's nothing more than a sad grumpy old man,...
What I've always said was true,...
It's easy to be loved but hard to love,...
Maybe it really is karma to make me love someone deeply, sincerely only to be rejected,...
My brains can't compute why feelings are so strong when I don't even know the person long enough yet,...
I too have no reasoning to what I feel,...
Torn, Lost and Suffering,...
How long would it last???